Considering Career Change

[jediwill83]

I once believed that I would stay in EMS until I retired.I have had many different jobs but EMS is the only career that I ever felt fulfilled me and made me feel as though I had found my niche.Ive been doing alot of self examination however and I may be making some forays into other fields of employment. Im not in danger of being fired....Im good at my job and I work hard to be the best that I can be and it fills this need I have to help others and give of myself.It can be very rewarding....but Im tired of sleeping in the station half the month.I work a total of 14 24 hour shifts a month in 48 and 72 hour increments. I wish I was home every night.I mean yeah Im being the provider with the job I have been blessed with...we arent rich but we have food on the table and we pay the rent and we are thankful for that.Sometimes I feel that I am out saving everyone else when the person I love most and needs me most is being neglected.She says she understands and shes a trooper but in my heart of hearts I feel as though Im doing her a disservice. When im off I spend all my time with her to try to make up for being away and its so hard to leave to go back to work.Im finding more and more that when Im off its hard for me to "turn off" and relax and get out of that fast paced high stress mindset.At the station I am woke at all hours of the night...I have a phone right beside my bed...it could be anything from a older person just needing some help off the floor after tripping or a bad wreck or shootings or stabbings...assaults ect.I just dont know if I can or even want to for much longer.I see people that dont even work that have better healthcare than I do with my insurance through my job.I dont even have my wife on my insurance because it would have been over 500 a month.Luckily there are some free clinics we have taken advantage of.I have a acquaintance that has offered to get me into pipeline surveying.Id make about 4 times what I make now and Id be home every night.Its outdoors and physically harder work which is one of the reasons Im losing weight now so ill be better prepared if I try this.Anyways...just a rant I guess.