Born Gay? Or God's Call?

[chosenbyone]

Originally Posted by ILG

Apology accepted.

As far as you being asexual, I think if you have a homosexual past I don't know that you could be considered asexual. A person who was asexual would be someone who has had no sexual feelings.

Language is an interesting thing. I think everyone should be creeped out by sexual sins. If they are not, I find that troublesome. I think it is more likely that they would be offended by what they THOUGHT I said rather than what I actually said. They would be assuming that I would be creeped out by they, themselves, when in effect, I said no such thing. I'm not sure I can take any responsibility for that. I think people involved in certain sins in the past sometimes read things into what people say. Sometimes people actually are nasty and militant, but unfortunately hurt and pain can cloud what people think other people say and they can be hurt by things that were never said in the first place.

I know that many people can't understand someone stating they were asexual, because most people have a strong sexual drive. I never had that drive even before I became sick. It never was something I needed or for that matter wanted in my life.

I found being celibate was really what suited my life more than having a sexual relationship. I did walk away from God for three years for a homosexual relationship, which was how I contracted HIV. I hated sex during that relationship and actually ended up having my own bedroom, because I had issues with intimacy. That didn't spare me from contracted HIV, which actually created even more of an aversion toward sex.

I don't believe I read anything other than what was written when you used the word "creeped" out. I don't even think of sex, but I wouldn't use creeped out in a discussion regarding sexual sins.

I guess that's why we all are created so unique so that we can learn from each other with respect. I wasn't hurt earlier by any comments made on this thread. Between trying to keep up with this thread and two people sending PMs and with not feeling very well, I started having a lot of anxiety and near the end my head was just swimming.

I'm feeling better after I was able to lie down for awhile and I wanted to make sure you were alright. I didn't mean to upset you earlier and I hope you have a good evening.

chosen