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Fear and other junk
Everyday I live in fear, fear that I'm going to leave this life for the next. Things happened in my life a few yrs ago, and more stuff happened/is happening more recently that plays on this fear.
I have been in a constant game of cat and mouse for 5 yrs, and I'm not the cat.
Rather than turn to God, I hide from him. Something that was never an issue in my life is suddenly a major issue. Not for the typical reasons. It is an "escape."
My family and friends think I'm insane. I wish that was true because that would mean that what I've been going through isn't real. I don't even discuss it with any of them anymore.
If I had known that one bad decision would impact my life in such a negative way and I'd have surely reconsidered.
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