Frustrated....

[jediwill83]

I've always had issues with my dad.

My dad is a preacher and when I try and talk to him about things he's pretty dismissive.

I mean there are things that God has given me that just set me on fire inside...Words and revelations and I try to talk to my dad about and he just abruptly changes the subject to something totally unrelated. Like he doesn't care who I am...Or what I'm saying.

It's frustrating because these are things you'd THINK would be of importance to him.

I'm not trying to shove things in his face...I'm trying to open up to him because we are similar in a lot of ways and I'm looking for feedback...Not backslap...Just discussion.

That's why I post alot on here...I enjoy and NEED the discussion and feedback even when we don't agree...Especially when we don't agree.

I grew up with no affirmation even though I had a father that seemed to be there and the preachers in my life pretty much took me for granted because they watched me grow up.

It was frustrating watching them cozy up to my dad with the camraderie...With my dad wearing a mask...Them not really knowing who he was like I did...All I wanted was some discipleship...because I certainly wasn't getting it at home.

I'm following after God, my wife and I both. We have stepped out on some extreme faith and truly we have discovered that when you do this...When you go against tradition and actually obey God it causes a rift to form between you and other friends and family.

Your life begins to convict them. You discover that you aren't called to make people at ease and comfortable.

It's amazing how defensive people get when you aren't even accusing them of anything...You're just obeying Him.

You begin to run into alot of "Older Brother" personalities that want to question your ability, calling, qualification and intentions when you show up and want to kill giants.

I'm blessed to have a pastor and evangelist at a church we are attending that is a hour and a half away that doesn't see me like others I grew up with have seen me.

I'm not claiming prophetic office but I do understand that saying,"A prophet hath no honor in his own country."

Love all you folks...just needed to talk and vent.