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Originally Posted by acerrak
ive done the same thing, felt the same way. I wanted to go back to God but felt powerless todo it. The same things in the world that had me in bondage before grasped me again.
even the preacher was praying for me and i told him im not your brother im your burden.
However while i was camping out with the pigs in the stall, God kept laying on my heart the parable of the lost son/prodigal son.
I however felt i cant go back to church ill get condemed, People wont look at me the same anymore. the relationshops we had would be gone. (btw that is just a lie from the pits of hell)
many times over this story would enter my head. and this went on for weeks.
It was so fitting on how detailed God can be, that when i went back to church, I bet you can guess what the preacher preached on that day. Yes sir the same thing he had placed on my mind.
Though you may not experience what i experience that doesnt mean he loves you less.. So stop degrading yourself, God thought you worthy to send his only begotten Son to die for you, while you was still a sinner.
and Just like the Father waited for his son to return home in the parable, he waits for you. He waites to but a robe around you, new shoes on your feet and a ring on your finger. The heavenly Host await for the sounds of repentance from your lips to have a revival.
You sir are redeemable
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i wanted to add since i went back to church, no condemnation, relationships have prospered and grown. He made us feel so loved that i consider these my family
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Wow,
That's exactly how I feel. I feel like the bros n siss in church will look at me different. Condemn me. Not look at me the same anymore. Doubt me. When I was in church, I was ZEALOUS for God. Than I fell, guilt and shame bore down on me and I couldn't face my family in church. I want to go back but I get thoughts of my church family thinking wierd thoughts about me. Like, if I'm zealous again, they'll be like, "oh how long is this one going to last this time?" I don't know why I think these thoughts when I know they're God fearing people and know better than to judge. Maybe it's because it's what I do? If I go back, I want to give it my ALL (110%x7) like I did before; but I fear I'll fall and won't ever go back. I've been out of church for 1 1/2 year
P.S: THANKS EVERYONE FOR YOUR INPUT, IT FEELS GOOD KNOWING I'M NOT THE ONLY ONE.
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