Five Years Ago Today...

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I was going to not post this on this thread.....not wanting this to get turned into being about me......but then I thought I should....I know there are others out there who deal with the same thing....

Thanks for posting your story. I think it's great you shared. I didn't want to bring this up on your thread, but I have had a chronic on-going "neck" problem for years.....I have had an MRI and seen doctors only to be told "there is nothing wrong with you". It is not completely debilitating....but, when my neck cracks every once in a while, I spiral down fast....sometimes I have cried for 15 minutes after a neck pop and I get forgetful and can't think straight. This began during the years that I talk about the depression I experienced after a minor car accident. This happened 3 months after the birth of my first baby so I think I had postpartum depression too. I have seen many doctors who all say it is anxiety/depression. BUT!!!! When I go to the chiropractor and get adjusted, voila!! I can think more clearly and most of the depression immediately disappears. But, I think there is always a thread of it that remains with me....and nobody understands it from the outside. No one knows what it is like to have to deal with it and always be told there is nothing wrong with you. The neurologist I saw within the last year said there is nothing wrong with me, it is stress and I need to stop seeing the chiropractor so much!! I told this to my chiropractor who got very angry and she said "I don't tell you not to see the neurologist! He needs to stay in his field!"

Anyway, thanks for your story. I understand how it feels to be told the same thing....even though I am still generally functional. I think that having this depression and being told it was spiritual and that I was just basically spiritually lazy or something was devastating. And with it....the inability to reason kept me where I was. I have told my husband if he sees that my neck has popped and I am acting funny to take me by the face and say "GO to the chiropractor!" because my inability to reason sometimes keep me from going. The reason I never talk about this aspect of my life is that it has never been diagnosed as anything other than "there is nothing wrong wtih you". So, it's embarrassing and stressful to even bring it up. Your story gives hope in many ways....and I hate it when people just say to quit whining. Reality is reality. Sometimes all you need is someone to listen to everything you are dealing with and say "Hey, you really ARE dealing with a lot. No wonder you struggle now and then".