As a child, I ended every bedtime prayer with, "...and Jesus, please don't let me die and go to hell." There are times the fear comes back and I reinforce God's grace by quoting as much scripture of God's love and grace, as I can.
I still tend to see bad before good. I don't know if I'll ever rid myself of the negativism, fear, and gloominess. But so often, positivity is a choice that has to be made.....daily. In
II Corinthians 4, where Paul said "We are pressed on every side by troubles, but we are not crushed and broken. We are perplexed, but we don't give up and quit. We are hunted down, but God never abandons us. We get knocked down, but we get up again and keep going", a few verses later he said:
"That is why we never give up. Though our bodies are dying, our spirits are being renewed every day."
Overcoming anything.....anything.....is a daily process. AA has tapped into this truth. Unfortunately, many times, Pentecostals are fed the "Magic Wand" strategy where we go to church, whoop it up, speak in tongues, and everything is fine forever. But it doesn't work that way. It's a daily thing.
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