Help...please.

[The Matt]

Originally Posted by FlamingZword

I do not know if you are taking medical drugs or not, but by reading your posts, it sounds to me like you are overmedicated. Your symptoms are a clear sign that your medication needs to be reduced.

I'm just going to answer this one before I go. I weaned myself five months ago off 40 mgs daily adderall, 3 mgs daily xanax, and 20 mgs nightly ambien, as well as too many street drugs and unprescribed narcotics to name. I currently take 160 mgs Geodon nightly for bipolar disorder, and it worked just fine for five months. I attribute this breakdown to a stressful job that I hate and want desperately to be away from, the death of my mother at a point when nobody truely close like that to me has died, the possibility of my aunt, who is basically my mother now, could die in surgery, nightmares, coming home to my empty house without anyone around and really grasping the meaning of being truely alone for a few hours, and who knows what else, I'm no doctor. I'm the most undermedicated I've been since I'm 13 years old, and five months without an anxiety attack is a small record for me. Right now, I'm just trying to take it one step at a time, and step number one before anything else is catching up on sleep. Goodnight my friend.

[Amanah]

Matt - when I am so overwhelmed by pain, despair, and depression that I’m struggling to function, I go into survival mode.
I make a list of what I need to do to be well; body, mind, and spirit, and then I just do it. I just follow the process till it leads me out of the darkness.

My lists and process may be different from yours, but here is mine

• Body – yoga each morning, then walk the dog. You need to do something physical each day to feel better. It could be going to the gym, lifting weights, going for a daily swim. You need a daily fitness routine. Eat healthy nutritious food.

• Mind – read scriptures, read good books. Write in a journal to sort your thoughts out, decide where you want to go, plan how you will reach your goals. Memorize and meditate on passages of scripture that you find comforting, and then recite them when you are feeling down.

• Spirit – talk to God, fellowship with others. The heart of serving God is to love God and love others. Spend time each day just talking with God, openly as you would a friend. Tell him exactly how you feel and ask for his help.

[Sam]

Originally Posted by The Matt

I'm just going to answer this one before I go. I weaned myself five months ago off 40 mgs daily adderall, 3 mgs daily xanax, and 20 mgs nightly ambien, as well as too many street drugs and unprescribed narcotics to name. I currently take 160 mgs Geodon nightly for bipolar disorder, and it worked just fine for five months. I attribute this breakdown to a stressful job that I hate and want desperately to be away from, the death of my mother at a point when nobody truely close like that to me has died, the possibility of my aunt, who is basically my mother now, could die in surgery, nightmares, coming home to my empty house without anyone around and really grasping the meaning of being truely alone for a few hours, and who knows what else, I'm no doctor. I'm the most undermedicated I've been since I'm 13 years old, and five months without an anxiety attack is a small record for me. Right now, I'm just trying to take it one step at a time, and step number one before anything else is catching up on sleep. Goodnight my friend.

And... you can make it with the Lord's help.
just living day to day.

As one preacher said:
Life by the yard is hard
but by the inch, it's a cinch

Well, even by the inch it's not always a cinch but much easier than trying to look out into the future and face those giants before you have to.

[Sam]

This is how Philippians 4:13 reads in The Amplified Bible

I have strength for all things in Christ Who empowers me [I am ready for anything and equal to anything through Him Who infuses inner strength into me; I am self-sufficient in Christ’s sufficiency].

[Sam]

The Serenity Prayer

God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
the courage to change the things I can;
and the wisdom to know the difference.
Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as a pathway to peace;
Taking, as Jesus did, this sinful world
as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that You will make all things right
if I surrender to Your Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with You
Forever in the next.
Amen.
--Reinhold Niebuhr
1892-1971

[Tim Rutledge]

Praying

[Sam]

This is one of the neat things about this forum.

Even with all our judging and childish arguing and name calling, we do pray for one another when there is a need. When you get to thinking of it we are more than just God's spoiled brats displaying childish sibling rivalry.

[AreYouReady?]

Yep.

Speaking of brats....where's byrd? He hasn't posted today. I miss him.

[The Matt]

Sleep is awesome.

[CC1]

Matt, I am also praying for you. I do think it is good you are making keeping your job a priority. As you said jobs are very hard to find in this economy (my SIL was unemployed almost two years before getting a job last week making about 1/3 what he prevoiusly made). The Bible certainly urges a man to work for his keep and it is noble you acknowledge that.

My biggest piece of advice to you would be for you to seek out some Christian counseling (real, educated, certfied, etc counselors). I know that most communities have Christian churches or organizations that provide counseling services with rates based on income. You desperately need a counselor with a Christian world view that you can work through your fears and concerns with.