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Originally Posted by mizpeh
Where did you acquire this foolishness? It sounds like you will do whatever is right in your own eyes even to the extent of calling the God of the Bible a sinner and then turning around and teaching a Bible study! Amazing! 
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First, spending 30 years with my wife has required me to live a very selfless life. As with any relationship that will face the many trials of life, we would never survive on me "Doing what's right in my own eyes". In fact, that would destroy our love, not build it. This also applies to raising my children. For me to bring them to maturity, doing only what I see as being right, I would fail them and myself.
I am curious as to your age and own experience. I'll take a stab in the dark here, but I have a good hunch you are very limited in experience. Time will change that.
When my first son died, I was in total disarray. I was confused. My heart was broken. But as time passed, I began to see how this experience revealed the true nature of life, love, patience, and compassion to those who've lost children. Death always seems to strike the nail of reality like nothing else does. When you see your son lying in a casket, and the tears of your family are everywhere, somehow it seems that God connects to this grief. He made us this way. God is not cold, as Religion portrays Him to be.
In 1994 my wife began hemorrhaging severely. We rushed her to the hospital where she almost passed away. She had emergency surgery, and we had no medical insurance. It took her months to recover, and years for me to pay the hospital and doctor bills. This humbled me beyond words. I watched men and women who did not know me, love my wife with good medicine and care. This was another big turning point in my life. The people, who I called “Sinners”, were saving my wife’s life. They held her hand, and comforted me in my distress.
My second and only son alive, almost died in the Marine Corps, and he was discharged a DAV (Disabled American Veteran). I fell to pieces over this. After 3 weeks in the hospital, and 2 month's in MRP (Medical Rehabilitation Platoon), my tears and moans to God filled our home daily.
I could share a lot more, but I think you may understand a little. When you see your Church fall apart after your Pastor falls into adultery, losing his family and the Church, you see the brokenness of people and the failure of humans. You realize that our Church model is man made and that we are given many false ideas when we become Christians.
You can call me foolish, friend, but Time is on my side. Your day will come, where unexpected things will happen and you will change.
Whether you or I like it, the Bible is a Book that is full of controversy and things that don't add up. But that's OK. My Faith doesn't waver over this, because I know this one Fact; Man wrote it, not God. You can claim all day He did, but He didn't.
I've seen the dark side of Religion and the error of boasting that we have the Truth. People are pitiful, and that includes you and I. Sometimes my only strength has been from what I've gone through, and God will work through life's difficulties to bring about a genuine love and compassion in a World that is desperate for Hope.
God Bless.