Backslid husband
Let me start this post by saying I was raised in church and my parents quit and divorced when I was 11, My mom just recently got back in church along with my stepdad, which is great and I am thankful for, because that was my prayer for a long time. Now, I have been faced with a new trial... My husband was in church when we got married 3 almost 4 years ago....in the past year, for whatever reason, he quit church and has recently started drinking, not everyday but off and on (not that that justifies it), occasionally he is very verbally abusive with me, and has started cursing.... things just roll of his tongue, I think before he even knows it. I feel so drained, not defeated, but very worn out in my spirit, i feel like the first part of my life i pleaded with God to bring my parents to a place that they knew they couldn't live without God, and now I find myself doing the same with my husband. It is a complete strain on me. We have a 2 year old son who needs desperately to see his father in church. My husband lets on to his family who is 8 hrs away that he still goes to church, but has not been in several months. I know i shouldn't question God, but sometimes I get tired of wearing a happy face... I am tired of being the only lady at my church who sits through service without a spouse by her side.. I see the support and the love that other men in our church give to their wives and it makes me think of the way the things once were. I have prayed, I have cried... I don't know what to do.... It is very difficult to hold on; please someone ....tell me what i should do.... *distrought*
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