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Originally Posted by 1ofthechosen
This made me laugh so hard. Aquila, I sold it, smoked it, ate it, I lived life for it. It's very addictive. Not addictive like hard drugs but a very mentally addictive drug, and very hard to kick. You already romance it, so you are day dreaming about getting a life long vice. i don't know whats going on in reality? Reality is where I come from, the front lines, I've smoked medical grade which is way better especially from Colorado so please stop trying to sell that excuse. What's going on in reality is that that same old prostitute got her a new dress and now she has become high class. She may can fit in a little better, but at this point they are grasping at straws. They've gone and adopted hallucinogens and Uppers that were hard street drugs for years, and are selling the public on "oh now this is good for you." While the court system was charging people for man slaughter on getting caught with too much of the same type of drugs, they are saying this about! (LSD, and MDMA).
That's the real reality, but believe whoever you want. I lived it, I'm a living breathing, walking test subject who has been set free from the liberty you so seek by the blood of the lamb!
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If miraculous healing doesn't come, what do you suggest I do? Because I'm at the end of my rope. I realize that I'm not welcomed in the church. I'm too broken. Too messed up. EB, and now you, have driven that into the ground. If I didn't long to be saved, I'd have left months ago. But I stand here praying, begging, pleading for healing and it has not come yet. What do you suggest I do in the mean time? I don't want anything to happen to me. I'm scared. I live with this, you don't. I've had it contribute to so many terrible things in my life. I'm so done with it. This merry-go-round starts spinning and there's nothing you or I can do to stop it. And I'm tired.
EB talks about how crazy my posts are, like I can control it. He doesn't realize that he is legitimately dealing with someone who is broken and yes, unstable. He doesn't see the insanity as symptomatic, he doesn't see it as a sign of someone in desperate need. He sees it as an opportunity to stand there chanting, "Jump!", to someone who's holding on by a thread. And watch, he'll even use this post to mock mercilessly. I know his spirit quite well. He can't resist red meat. Come get me EB. Come crucify me... again. And again. And again. The pain of it keeps me feeling bro. It tells me I'm alive. It tells me that maybe I still have a chance, because it hurts. The day it doesn't hurt is the day I'll know my walk with God is over. So, keep it comin'.
Why is the church like this? I'll tell you. It's because no one pays a price. Nobody has any skin in the game. Y'all can laugh, mock, berate, slander, libel, denigrate, insult, taunt, and tear a person to shreds... and in the end, just laugh it off. It must be nice.
So, if healing doesn't come, what do we do, elder? I want you to come along side me in spirit and help me. Pray for me. Encourage me. If healing doesn't come immediately... what do I do? Because I just want to be free.
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