Psychotropic Drugs in Religious Rituals

[votivesoul]

Aquila,

Do with this as you please, but I am going to suggest something that is likely counter-intuitive and may even rankle a bit, but here goes:

Stop asking God to heal you, because clearly, He has already said "No". Instead, ask God to help you find the redemption in your suffering. Ask Him for revelation and insight into the nature of your pain and why He insists you continue to carry it.

You are right. There are people that God does not heal. But there is a reason, and armed with a reason that comes straight from the throne, those who are not healed can endure, and even more than that, prevail, glorying in their infirmities, or the things that continue to sap them of strength, leaving them weak.

This, too, is key: Being weak and being a victim are too different things. As a man thinks in his heart, so he is. You have to be very careful with labels and identity. You go around thinking of yourself as nothing but PTSD vet Aquila, you'll stop seeing yourself any other way, and when that sets in, and it seems it has, there isn't anywhere to go but "Woe is me, for I am undone" without any coal of fire on the other side.

How many soldiers back from war would love to have what you have? A relationship with God. Biblical truth. The Holy Spirit. Salvation. Think of all the other vets like you that you could lead to the Lord, because they would believe your testimony, because you've already walked the necessary miles in their shoes. Ex-thugs win thugs. Ex-addicts or ex-drunks win addicts and drunks. If you've got the cred with other vets, you can win, them!

You must find redemption in your suffering, NOT DELIVERANCE.

The deliverance from your suffering will come once you find the redemption. Find the meaning and purpose, the reason, and then, put legs on. Get outside of your own head and find someone else to help. Bemoaning life and your fate isn't going to get the job done. Take complete ownership for your own condition by taking ownership of someone else's.