Psychotropic Drugs in Religious Rituals

[Evang.Benincasa]

Originally Posted by Aquila

I just want the racing thoughts to end. The fear to cease. I'm tired. I feel like a car with the alarm system going off all night. I'm so done reliving things I don't want to relive. I'm tired of the intrucive thoughts. Things that horrify me. I'm just wanting to wake up and feel my mind... still. At ease. And be able to know that for the rest of the day... I'll not be holding back this feeling, these thoughts, and smiling like I'm okay so that I don't make anyone uncomfortable.

I was talking to Chris. The kids will be with their biologicals for the 4th. Things whent really badly last 4th. Chris and I will be home. But she doesn't know, I'm already feeling the nerves. I'm already feeling that feeling in the pit of my stomach like I'm on a roller coaster. It's been with me all week. Richards didn't have to die. Everyone is going to be "Saluting the troops" and waving flags and cheering like the troops were sent away to summer camp or something. Where's Richards? Where am I? Better yet, where's Jesus? I know He's here. I know He was there. And I know that He can see me, why is this happening to me?

Originally Posted by Aquila

Man, that sounds good. lol

Post a pic. I'd like to see what you can do with a quesadilla. Maybe it will inspire me to make something creative tonight.

Originally Posted by Aquila

Oh, you're killing me. lol

Originally Posted by Aquila

You don't like sour cream?

Bro... I love sour cream. I can eat it out of the container. lol

Huh?

Really?

Anyone else notice what I am noticing?

[houston]

[Evang.Benincasa]

Lord of the Rings meets Star Wars the Force Strikes Back?

[houston]

Originally Posted by Evang.Benincasa

Lord of the Rings meets Star Wars the Force Strikes Back?

I am not familiar with either of those.

[votivesoul]

Aquila,

Do with this as you please, but I am going to suggest something that is likely counter-intuitive and may even rankle a bit, but here goes:

Stop asking God to heal you, because clearly, He has already said "No". Instead, ask God to help you find the redemption in your suffering. Ask Him for revelation and insight into the nature of your pain and why He insists you continue to carry it.

You are right. There are people that God does not heal. But there is a reason, and armed with a reason that comes straight from the throne, those who are not healed can endure, and even more than that, prevail, glorying in their infirmities, or the things that continue to sap them of strength, leaving them weak.

This, too, is key: Being weak and being a victim are too different things. As a man thinks in his heart, so he is. You have to be very careful with labels and identity. You go around thinking of yourself as nothing but PTSD vet Aquila, you'll stop seeing yourself any other way, and when that sets in, and it seems it has, there isn't anywhere to go but "Woe is me, for I am undone" without any coal of fire on the other side.

How many soldiers back from war would love to have what you have? A relationship with God. Biblical truth. The Holy Spirit. Salvation. Think of all the other vets like you that you could lead to the Lord, because they would believe your testimony, because you've already walked the necessary miles in their shoes. Ex-thugs win thugs. Ex-addicts or ex-drunks win addicts and drunks. If you've got the cred with other vets, you can win, them!

You must find redemption in your suffering, NOT DELIVERANCE.

The deliverance from your suffering will come once you find the redemption. Find the meaning and purpose, the reason, and then, put legs on. Get outside of your own head and find someone else to help. Bemoaning life and your fate isn't going to get the job done. Take complete ownership for your own condition by taking ownership of someone else's.

[Evang.Benincasa]

Originally Posted by houston

I am not familiar with either of those.

Well with what you posted you got two for one.

[Aquila]

Originally Posted by votivesoul

Aquila,

Do with this as you please, but I am going to suggest something that is likely counter-intuitive and may even rankle a bit, but here goes:

Stop asking God to heal you, because clearly, He has already said "No". Instead, ask God to help you find the redemption in your suffering. Ask Him for revelation and insight into the nature of your pain and why He insists you continue to carry it.

You are right. There are people that God does not heal. But there is a reason, and armed with a reason that comes straight from the throne, those who are not healed can endure, and even more than that, prevail, glorying in their infirmities, or the things that continue to sap them of strength, leaving them weak.

This, too, is key: Being weak and being a victim are too different things. As a man thinks in his heart, so he is. You have to be very careful with labels and identity. You go around thinking of yourself as nothing but PTSD vet Aquila, you'll stop seeing yourself any other way, and when that sets in, and it seems it has, there isn't anywhere to go but "Woe is me, for I am undone" without any coal of fire on the other side.

How many soldiers back from war would love to have what you have? A relationship with God. Biblical truth. The Holy Spirit. Salvation. Think of all the other vets like you that you could lead to the Lord, because they would believe your testimony, because you've already walked the necessary miles in their shoes. Ex-thugs win thugs. Ex-addicts or ex-drunks win addicts and drunks. If you've got the cred with other vets, you can win, them!

You must find redemption in your suffering, NOT DELIVERANCE.

The deliverance from your suffering will come once you find the redemption. Find the meaning and purpose, the reason, and then, put legs on. Get outside of your own head and find someone else to help. Bemoaning life and your fate isn't going to get the job done. Take complete ownership for your own condition by taking ownership of someone else's.

Amen. Good stuff. It's similar to what I had written to a friend regarding the denial of healing. I believe that when healing is denied, we should find purpose in our condition and glory in our infirmities, asking God how we can allow our delayed healing to contribute to both God's glory and the greater good of all men. If my healing tarries, have I brought attention to the plight of others in my condition? Have I challenged those barriers in our thinking that might change the way we deal with mental illness like PTSD? If so, then the present denial of healing will have been for His glory, and the greater good of all.

[houston]

Originally Posted by Evang.Benincasa

Huh?

Really?

Anyone else notice what I am noticing?

[Evang.Benincasa]

Originally Posted by houston

The many faces of Aquila.

[1ofthechosen]

Originally Posted by Aquila

I just want the racing thoughts to end. The fear to cease. I'm tired. I feel like a car with the alarm system going off all night. I'm so done reliving things I don't want to relive. I'm tired of the intrucive thoughts. Things that horrify me. I'm just wanting to wake up and feel my mind... still. At ease. And be able to know that for the rest of the day... I'll not be holding back this feeling, these thoughts, and smiling like I'm okay so that I don't make anyone uncomfortable.

I was talking to Chris. The kids will be with their biologicals for the 4th. Things whent really badly last 4th. Chris and I will be home. But she doesn't know, I'm already feeling the nerves. I'm already feeling that feeling in the pit of my stomach like I'm on a roller coaster. It's been with me all week. Richards didn't have to die. Everyone is going to be "Saluting the troops" and waving flags and cheering like the troops were sent away to summer camp or something. Where's Richards? Where am I? Better yet, where's Jesus? I know He's here. I know He was there. And I know that He can see me, why is this happening to me?

My question in the bold here who is talking? Are you referring to yourself in 3 person? Or how many are there with you?