One of the Biggest Mistakes

[Cindy]

Originally Posted by ILG

Thanks cneattx. I don't talk too much about the extent of things in my life. This that I wrote today I felt was a pretty safe topic. It just seems like a no brainer to me now....there are many, many UPC churches that emphasize church ahead of family. I know from being in it for 19 years. As for feeling happier in the church I am in....I don't know what I feel. If you want to know what's really inside of me, what I rarely say.....I have been so traumatized by my experiences in the church that I am not involved in church at all except for attending on Sunday mornings. I had a nightmare the other night....that my husband said he wanted to get back into the UPC and pastor. It was truly a nightmare. This is not a joke. I woke up and told my husband about it and he said "That was a nightmare!!" I was full of fear in the dream.

So, this issue just seemed like a safe, little no-brainer discussion issue. If I can't discuss this tiny thing safely without being criticized by UPC people, you can imagine that I will probably never talk about the things that are really bothering me.

I do hope you can find someone, or someplace where you can talk about the things that are bothering you. Like I told MP I did not mean to offend you, as I never experienced anything like that in the UPC churches I have attended. I will be praying for you. And praying for more understanding myself.