Not Just A Mom

[KeptByTheWord]

Originally Posted by Sasha

My mom and I never got along most of our lives. She was divorced from my dad, who never wanted anything to do with my brother and I, when we were very young, and she had to work to make ends meet. This meant she left us with people who abused us, mainly me, and she was someone who never believed children because they always lied. I never had protection from my abusers, and my mom was abusive as well. I grew up hateful and bitter and it carried into my young adulthood. My mom thought I would end up in prison, and that's no exaggeration.

I didn't raise my children the way I was raised. I made sure I hugged them, told them I loved them, and protected them at all costs. I was even told by a pastor once that I was overprotective and he saw that in me from the first time he met me. I have always been there for my children. They are my life.

Oddly enough, my mom has changed. Her grandchildren mean the world to her. She always let them get away with everything. She thinks they walk on water and even admitted to me that I did well in raising them, even though at first she thought I should beat them for every little thing. They have never seen her as I saw her growing up. They are adults now and I tell them stories of my life with her and it shocks them that she was ever that way.

Being a single mother most of my childrens lives, I had to work. But even then, I was very involved with my children, attending ball games and being involved in scouts and camping. Even when going to school full time and working as they got older, I knew what they were doing. Sneaking around was something they just didn't do. I would leave work to check on them and NEVER found them doing something they weren't to be doing. They knew I had to trust them.

My mom cursed me with having children just half as bad as I was. My kids didn't even come close. Thank God!

Thank you for sharing your story. I can feel your heartbreak, and yet, through the tears, it is wonderful to hear the victory undertones! Praise God for keeping you, and keeping your children! And I'm glad your relationship with your mother has healed. Many times that can take place, as people from that generation kind of mellow out as they get older. It happened in with my husband's dad as well. Very abusive and difficult relationship growing up, but now, things are much better.

Would you say that being a mother was the most fulfilling thing you've done as a woman? Just curious.