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Originally Posted by Azzan
Okay, I'll bite. I have been lurking on this forum for over a year, listening to the discussions on here. Of particular interest to me have been the discussions about gays.
You see, I am one. I am not here to push an agenda and I am not going to be drawn into debate. I am simply responding to NOW's request to hear from a person who is gay.
A little about me. I was raised in the UPC. My family is still in the UPC. In fact, I have children being raised in the UPC and my father holds a license with the UPC.
There has been a lot discussion on here about whether being gay is a choice. Believe me, I wish it were! It is not a choice for me and never has been. I cannot tell you how many hours were spent in prayer and days spent in fasting asking, nay pleading, that this condition be taken from me.
I so hated what I was that I have tried suicide twice and been locked up in mental wards. It's only been in the last 10 years or so that I decided that if I were going to survive that I find a way to accept and even love myself.
There was no way I could make my religious training and my "choice" to be gay co-exist with each other and so one had to go by the way side as there is no room for my kind.
So there you have it.
What would you like to know NOW?
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Wow. First, thank you for having the courage to tell some of your story and jumping in here. I hope you're not bashed like I've seen happen here on numerous other occasions. It's not unlike, at all, what I've heard many times from others in your demographic. In fact, your thoughts about "Choice", "Begging God to take it away", and suicide attempts are verbatim what I, and I'm sure others here, have heard before.
I'd like to know your thoughts about the military policy, your feelings about their motives, the fear of some here to shower in a military setting with gay men, and your feelings when you read things such as the one fellow's thoughts about homosexuality being a mental illness.
Thanks again for jumping in.
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